Depression, Anxiety, it sucks

Hope everyone had a Blessed Litha, a Merry Yule for the Southern Hemispherers and just a happy first day of Summer for everyone else. I've been having a lot going through my mind lately and been trying to sort through them all. My doctor put me on Zoloft again, I hate depression and anxiety. It's been lingering over me for so many years, no matter how much I fight, I think it has to do with lack of support. I just feel so alone sometimes and I think is it really worth still living here on this earth, no one really likes me that much, yes they say they do, but where are they? Do you know what stops me from just not wanting to be here anymore? My kids, my lights , my reason to want to live. They are the most important people to me. I could never leave them, one parent already left them. I can't do that to them. So it's a struggle from day to day. I feel like I'm a failure, no good at anything. I want a job, but don't have any experience, don't know what I'd be good at doing. I really want office work, but my typing skills aren't quick enough, I'm not quick enough for any employer, believe me I've heard it so many times and it gets really frustrating when you try your best, but its not good enough. I'm sorry for being all Debbie Downer today, I just needed to get everything off my chest, it was hurting me too much keeping it all in.

Computer Issues

Sorry for the absence again, my computer is having so many damn issues at the moment I can't really do much, wish I could get it fixed or get a new one, one or the other would be nice, but the money isn't there. So anyways I may be able to post and I might not, but I will try not to let it go for too long. I swear its me though because my daughter has no problems with it, just me when I sit close to it, it freezes, it goes all wonky, it just plain stops. I'm just getting so frustrated. I have magnetic appeal...lol

Summer is almost here...Litha Ritual

I wrote this a couple years ago and thought I would share with you all because summer is coming next week. Hope you all enjoy.

Welcoming Summer

Litha 2010

By Danielle O'Shaughnessy

Items needed: A blanket or a picnic table, Elemental Items: Mango Iced Tea for Water, BBQ Chicken or anything BBQ for Fire, Pasta Salad for Air, Potato Salad for Earth, Watermelon for Goddess, Potato Chips for God, Horseshoes, Frisbee, anything that you may play during a picnic, other picnic items.

Set up: Lay out your blanket or find a picnic table. Set your Iced Tea in the West, BBQ Chicken in the South, Pasta Salad in the East, Potato Salad in the North, Watermelon and chips in the center, everything else within reach.

PreRitual Instructions: Make sure you have everything you need for the picnic.

Circle Casting:

Start from the East and walk around the blanket or table 3x and chant:

Let the Ants Stay away

Let the bugs fly way

Let this circle I cast

Be free of all harm.

Let the Winds guide us

Let the Fiery sun keep us warm

Let the cool waters refresh us

and the Earth give us balance.

The Circle is now cast

and may this glorious day last

we are now protected from all

negative energies. So mote it be.

Corner Calling:

Stand and Face East and raise up your arms (Draw a pentacle with your finger) and say:

Spirits of the East

Lord and Lady of the Gentle Winds

We welcome you, as we welcome summer. So Mote it Be.

Face the South and Draw a Pentacle with your finger and say:

Spirits of the South

Lord and Lady of the Flaming Sun

We welcome you, as we welcome summer. So Mote it Be.

Face the West and Draw a Pentacle with your finger and say:

Spirits of the West

Lord and Lady of the cool refreshing waters.

We welcome you, as we welcome summer. So Mote it Be.

Face the North and Draw a Pentacle with your finger and say:

Spirits of the North

Lord and Lady of the Green Meadows and the Majestic Mountains of Earth.

We welcome you, as we welcome summer. So Mote it Be.

Invocation to Ra:

As the Summer sun Shines brightly down.

I call unto you, Sun God Amun-Ra

Let your Rays shine down

Make smiles instead of Frowns

Be with us now on this summer day.

As we feel the warmth of your summer rays.

So Mote it be.

Invocation to Bast:

Oh Beautiful Sun Goddess Bast

I call upon you queen of all felines and Ruler of Bubaste

Beautiful Goddess of the Summer Days, you who brings the fun and joy to us all. Queen of the Warm Sun Rays. I call unto you to be with us on this warm summer day to celebrate, to have fun, to bring lots of joy. So Mote it be.

Spells/Blessings/Charms/Meditations/ Whatever:

Now's the time to have some fun, bring out your stuff that you are going to be playing with and say this little blessing before you start:

Lord Ra and Lady Bast. Bestow this blessing unto us and let us have some fun together as family and friends. May we bond and grow closer together this summer day. Let everyone have some fun and to deeply experience joy. So mote it be.

Cakes and Ale (Picnic):

Say this Blessing over the food:

Oh Great God Amun Ra and Beautiful Goddess Bast, Please Bless this food that we are about to partake. We eat and drink in your honor. We offer some in return for the joy and laughter you bestowed upon us. Brightest Blessings to you both.

Energy Requests will now be made

Thanks to Bast:

Thank you Bast for Joining us to welcome summer.

Thank you for allowing us to celebrate with you.

You have brought so much joy to us. Again Thank you Bast

Hail and Farewell.

Thanks to Ra:

Thank you Ra, for allowing us to enjoy your warm summer sun

Thank you for joining us to welcome summer

You have brought plenty of smiles and lots of joy. Again Thank you Ra.

Hail and Farewell.

Releasing the Elements:

Face the North and say:

Thank you Spirits of the North

and thank you Lord and Lady of the Green Meadows and the Majestic Mountains. Thank you for allowing us to enjoy the bounty of the Earth on this summer day. Hail and Farewell.

Face the West and Say:

Thank you Spirits of the West

and Thank you Lord and Lady of the Refreshing cool waters.

Thank you for allowing us to feel refreshed and cooled with your refreshing cool waters on this summer day. Hail and Farewell.

Face the South and say:

Thank you Spirits of the South

and Thank you Lord and Lady of the Flaming sun

Thank you for allowing us to enjoy the warm summer sun on this summer day. Hail and Farewell.

Face the East and say:

Thank you Spirits of the East

and Thank you Lord and Lady of the Gentle Breeze.

Thank you for bringing your gentle winds on this summer day.

Hail and Farewell.

Opening the Circle:

Going in the opposite direction of where you started. Walk around your blanket or table and say:

The circle is open, but never unbroken.

All negativity stayed out and all Positive energies stayed in.

So Mote it Be.

Ritual Ending:

Our ritual has ended, but the fun continues.

Go in Peace and Love

So Mote it Be.

Post Ritual Instructions:

Make sure you throw all garbage into the garbage can. Put all your picnic stuff away. Then continue to have fun on this day.

Recipes:

Mango Iced Tea:

1 ½ quarts cold water

6 tea bags

2 cups Mango Nectar

sugar

¼ cup Fresh Mint Leaves

Thinly sliced Mango

1. Bring water to a boil, turn off heat. Add tea Bags and steep until Tea is dark, about 5-10 minutes
2. Remove Tea Bags, Add Mango Nectar and add sugar to taste. Stir until sugar is dissolved.
3. Place in pitcher and add mint leaves. Pour over ice and garnish with mango slices.

Potato Salad:

8 medium Potatoes, peeled and cubed

3 eggs

1 small onion or 6 green onions, chopped

2 stalks of celery, chopped

¼ cup sweet pickle relish

¾ cup mayonnaise or miracle whip

1 Tablespoon prepared mustard

1 Teaspoon salt

pepper to taste

Cover Potatoes with water in a large saucepan. Cook until tender. Drain. At the same time the potatoes are cooking, put eggs in a small saucepan and bring them to a boil. Boil at least 5 minutes for hard boiled eggs. Remove from heat, cool in cold water. Peel eggs and chop. In a large bowl, combine cooked and cooled potatoes, chopped eggs and all remaining ingredients. Mix Well. Refrigerate until ready to serve.

Macaroni Salad:

3 cups of cooked elbow macaroni

½ cup of mayonnaise or miracle whip

1 Stalk of celery, finely diced

1 green pepper, finely diced

1 tsp prepared mustard

1 tsp salt

1/3 cup sweet pickle relish

Combine drained macaroni with all ingredients, mix well. Refrigerate until ready to serve in order to blend flavors.

*both recipes come from the book: 365 quick, easy, & inexpensive Dinner Menus by Penny E. Stone

Iced Tea Recipe comes from Woman's World Magazine 

My Favorite Top twenty 70s songs

Well originally it was going to be 10, but I just couldn't choose, there are so many I that I enjoyed listening to when I was a young one, so here we go starting with number 20:

20) The Hustle by Van McCoy, seriously can't sit still when this plays, the dance is really easy to do

19) Disco Duck by Rick Dees and his cast of Idiots, lol I still love this song, so funny

18) Low Rider by War, awesome song

17) How Can you Mend a Broken Heart by The BeeGees, oh my god I cry every time I hear this song, RIP Robin Gibb, you are so missed. :(

16) Joy To the World by Three Dog Night, Just Yes :)

15) Love, love will keep us together by the Captain and Tennille

14) Bad Girls by The Disco Queen herself Donna Summer, another legend gone to soon :(

13) Do Ya Think I'm Sexy by Sexy Rod Stewart, oh the memories of this song ;o)

12) Staying Alive by The Beegees, Now who doesn't love Disco :)

11) Dancing Queen by Abba, I love them so much

10) Copacabana by Barry Manilow, oh my god those beautiful eyes, that beautiful voice *sigh

9) American Pie by Don McLean

8) In The Ghetto- Elvis Presley

7) In the Summertime- Mungo Jerry

6) Tie a Yellow Ribbon round the old oak tree- Tony Orlando and Dawn, yes a guilty pleasure of mine...lol what can I say I love the song

5) Dream on- Aerosmith

4) Free Bird by Lynyrd Skynrd, AWESOME AWESOME SONG, Yup that's why it here at number 4

3) Nights in White Satin by The Moody Blues

2) Seasons in the Sun by Terry Jacks, are you ready for number 1, DRUM ROLLLLLLLLLL

1) My all time favorite song from the 70s, that I absolutely love, that I have used as my theme song for many years is I WILL SURVIVE BY GLORIA GAYNOR, so now go walk out the door, don't come around here, you're not welcome any more, I've got all my love to give, I've got all my life to live, I will Survive I will Survive. hey hey. Hope you all enjoyed my little musical this evening <3

My Top Ten Favorite Pagan books

10. Hedge Witch by Silver Ravenwolf- A book full of helpful hints, recipes, spells, rituals, crafts for your hedge witchery ways. I found this book quite easy to read and understand
9. All of the Herbal Almanacs from Llewellyn, I love these books. I started buying them in 2007 and buy them every single year, so much information, recipes about herbs.
8. All the Magical Almanacs from Llewelleyn, again these books provide a lot of good information every year
7.Witchcraft on a Shoestring by Deborah Blake, a book about practicing the craft on a budget, you don't have to spend a lot of money to do what you love, I love the part where it gives me 50 ways to practice witchcraft for little or no money
6.Wicca; A guide for the Solitary Practitioner by Scott Cunningham, a good place to start if you are just a beginner
5. Cunningham's Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs by Scott Cunningham, so full of good information if you want to know the meaning of each herb
4. All of the Kate West Books, This woman is awesome, I love her books, books include The Real Witches Kitchen and The Real Witches Craft
3. All of the Christopher Penszak books, The Inner Temple, The Outer Temple, etc....
2. All of Dorothy Morrison, Everyday Magic, The Craft, very easy read if you are just starting
1. And The Best of all in my Opinion, is Ms. Judika Illes, I mean her books are beyond awesome, 5000 spells, The Encyclopedia of Witchcraft and The Encyclopedia of Spirits, I will be buying more of her books. I just love her to pieces

These are not the only ones I like there are many many more, but I could add only 10.

Horse Racing, fantasies, Johnny Depp and other excitements from the day

The title alone shows how much I have going through my lovely head all at once, so I was looking forward to watching "I'll have Another" win the Belmont today, but the poor baby had to be retired yesterday due to on coming tendonitis, so better than he be put down after a hard long race, wishing him a speedy recovery, So I rooted for Union Rags and he won, didn't look promising at the beginning, but he pulled through...yayyyyy. Today is Johnny Depp's Birthday, damn I love him to pieces, well I love Adam Lambert a little more, but hey a girl can dream, put me in between the both of them and I shall die a happy death. It doesn't matter if Adam is Gay, it's my fantasy..hehehe ( is it getting warm in here) soooo any how, today was so crappy with rain, it was raining all day, tomorrow is going to be better according to the weatherman, did I say other excitements for today? Nope nothing really happened that was exciting

A couple of Vegetarian Recipes

Vegetable Soup

1 Can Tomato Juice (I prefer the vegetable cocktail, gives the soup some extra flavour, but you can use whatever you like.

1 Can of Corn

3 potatoes, peeled and chopped

2 cups of mini carrots, cut in half

1 onion, chopped

3-4 stalks of celery, peeled and chopped

1/2 head of cauliflower, chopped

1/2 carton of  vegetable soup stock

Add all ingredients to a crock pot or a big soup pot, season to taste

*Optional: Add one can of drained and rinsed lentils or chickpeas

Cook on high in Crockpot for 4 hrs or bring to a boil on stove top, reduce heat and simmer until vegetables are tender

Vegetarian Stir Fry

Stir fry potatoes or sweet potatoes( I like the sweet potatoes, adds extra vitamins), add some onions, zucchini, corn, peppers, garlic, whatever kind of veggie you like. At the end, when the veggies are almost tender, add the black beans and diced tomatoes. Add Cumin and chili powder( 1 tsp of each) while stir frying and also a pinch of salt and pepper. When finished, you can add cheese, ketchup, sour cream, yogurt, Tabasco sauce as a topping. For a change, you can add Tofu instead of the black beans

cooking time; 45 min- 1hr

Favorite books

I was thinking about this today, what were some of my books that I really enjoyed reading when I was growing up and there is a couple that I think about quite a bit. One being Charlotte's Web by E.B. White, I don't know how many times I've read that book and I loved every minute of it, about a sweet little pig named Wilbur who was the runt of the litter and was saved numerous times from being slaughtered by a spider named Charlotte, Charlotte wrote messages in her web like Some Pig, Terrific, radiant, and Humble, these messages persuaded the farmer not to kill Wilbur, and it made Wilbur famous. My favorite would have to be Templeton, a funny gluttonous, rat who was more than willing to help out for a price of food, he would go out and find the words for Charlotte to use. Oh the good ole memories, another book I was thinking about and can never seem to find any more is a book called Magic Elizabeth by Norma Kassirer, oh my gosh, I love this story, my grand mother had a copy of it at her house long time ago and I was immediately hooked. It's a story of a little girl named Sally who goes to visit her scary Aunt Sarah and cat named Shadow for the summer and is immediately drawn into a mystery when she sees a portrait of another little girl and her doll hanging on her aunt's wall. The mystery begins when she finds an old mirror up in the attic and starts seeing these images of the little girl who is also named Sally playing her doll, I won't go into it more that would ruin the mystery of the book, if you ever find it I highly recommend it for you or your child.

Frustrations

Sitting here wondering why do I suck so much on writing, why do I have writers block, how do I get rid of this writers block and how do I get more followers. I follow lots of other bloggers, and yes I am bloody well complaining as it is my blog I can say whatever I want. I'm wondering how does a 13 year get over 600 followers on her blog, she only shares pictures, I write what is on my mind and I only have 6, I must be boring as watching a golf game on tv...zzzzzzzz..but no I don't think I am, okay so I've been gone for awhile, but I'm here now and I'm trying, so if any of my followers that I have left, feel free to share me please and thank you. So yes Frustrations is what this blog is all about today. I'm thinking I have this creative writing book where it gives you prompts and ideas, maybe I'll start using that. YEAH that's it I will, a few little stories won't kill you right? :) Tomorrow will be a better day. Tomorrow Tomorrow I'll love ya tomorrow, you're only a day away.

Apologies for long absence

Holy Crap it has been quite awhile since my last post, November 6th 2011...hmmmm. Alot happened since then that's for sure, Let's see, I was trying to get NanoWriMo in order, working my butt off trying to get it done, but nooooo I end up fracturing my ankle real bad, so bad it needed a plate and 12 screws to hold it together, spent a week in the hospital which was fucking boring as hell. This was November 20th, spent a month and a half at my mom and dads place having them care for me and my girls which pretty much made this writing thing disappear, going to be ready for next time and not leaving the house till its done. I wish no one a broken ankle, well maybe a few people, but that's a different story. So anyhow, still recovering almost 7 months later, got a feeling my ankle will never be the same again. What else has happened since my last post, let's see, got a new kitty. His name is Esso, mostly black with a little white on his chest and underbelly. Oh my Gosh the most sweetest, annoying, lovable, attention loving cat we ever owned. He's annoying because he meows to much and I have no clue what he wants and neither do my daughters, but we love him anyways. Some sad news, back in March we lost Rascal our Rat, poor little guy :( he died a happy life though. I figured it was time for me to restart writing again, damn depression overtook me during these past few months and I hated it, I went through some pretty dark times. What better place to start writing, then my lovely little blog, maybe that might get some creative juices flowing. Just wanted to stop by again and say hi <3

This is Esso;

I'm here, but not really

OMG, I am so sorry for not posting, so busy doing other things lately. Okay, so I've started this NaNoWriMo this month for the first time and quite frankly I'm really behind schedule. I need to get back on schedule by...oh 10000 words or more (I only have 1262). I wish that writing muse of mine would get her ass outta the clouds and help me here. Kinda hard to do when you're writing a new novel, by the brain that you have when it doesn't work properly. The outline is there but the words aren't coming as fast as I would like them too, yet I'm writing this blog with no problem, hmmm go figure. I probably won't be posting here too often this month if I want to succeed at 50000 words this month. I can do this I really can, I just need to commit. I need to get everything done that needs to be done first, make sure the kids are happy and healthy and out the door on time for school, put the phone on do not disturb, KEEP FACEBOOK TURNED OFF!!!!!! yes I shouted at myself because that silly thing is my greatest distraction. So that is my goal for the week, it would be nice if I had some motivation or inspiration or something, so from now until next Sunday I hope to have at least 15000 words.

Samhain is almost Here and day 14/44 of witchiness; What is a favorite Pagan Holiday I like to celebrate

5 more Days until Samhain and 5 more days until I turn the Big 40..woot woot. So I'm gonna say that as part of the 44 days of witchiness, I'm gonna add this one as Day 14/44- What is a favorite Pagan Holiday I like to Celebrate? Well duh its obvious. This year is especially good because it falls on the year we have a party for the kids or teenagers now, I guess. So its gonna be like a 40th birthday party, except with teens...lol. The house is getting decorated, the pumpkins will be carved probably tomorrow, I have to bake and cook and clean, and make sure the movies are working properly by Saturday...UGH time to get the kids on board I think. So anyhow for Samhain (pronounced Sow-in), I like to set up an extra plate for those ancestors who have passed on and make a dinner in honor of our ancestors. Here's the Menu:

Appetizer; Bannock, which is a Native American Quick Bread, made for my native american Ancestors
2 1/2 cups of Flour
6 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp salt
2 TBSP Sugar (optional)
1/3 cup shortening
2 eggs (optional)
1 cup of water or more
Method: Combine the first 4 ingredients, add shortening, rubbing it in to form fine crumbs. Combine Egg with water (if using an egg), and add to flour mixture, stir to form a soft dough, and knead briefly, If using a frying pan, grease the pan then dust with flour, place about a quarter of the dough in the pan and heat. Bake until the bottom is lightly brown, then flip. Bake about 10 mins on the opposite side. Bake remaining dough in similar fashion. If baking in the oven pat down into greased pie plate. Bake in 400 degree oven, for about 20 minutes, or until cooked in the middle. Sprinkle cinnamon sugar on top while still warm.

Salad: Caesar Salad; this is a Family favorite and very simple to make; Romaine Lettuce, Caesar Salad Dressing, Croutons and some parmeson cheese, then mix it all together.

Main Dish: Varenki, Made for my Russian Ancestors

Dessert: Apple Crisp, made in honor of my Norwegian ancestors, Okay not exactly a norwegian recipe, I made Apple Cake once also known as Eplekake, but this year I'm making things simple and buying some Apple Crisp.

Beverage: Apple Juice for the Girls and a glass of wine for me.

So what are the Activities we plan on doing; Well going out getting candy for one, then I have a special Ritual I like to do to remember my loved ones, I'll add that on Later, maybe tomorrow

Day 12/44- Picture of Nature (Air Element)

I thought I did this already, but then that's okay, so I picked this one a beautiful sunset, the colors are absolutely gorgeous in the sky

Day 11/44- Witchy Tools: Oils

Oil is a symbol of the element of fire and their magic works through vibrations and scent

Here are some of my favorites:

First off the Base Oil, which is used to mix and blend the oils

I like to use Grapeseed oil because
Grape seed oil is a preferred cosmetic ingredient for control of skin moisturization. A light, thin oil, grape seed oil leaves a glossy film over the skin when used as a carrier oil foressential oils in aromatherapy. It contains more linoleic acid than many other carrier oils. Grape seed oil is also used as a lubricant for shaving.


I also like to use Sweet Almond Oil because it's mild and it's used as well in Prosperity rituals such as annointing candles and money, etc.., also the symbol of wakefulness to the ancient Egyptians.


I also like Jojoba oil, but it can be fairly expensive and its not really an oil but they call it a wax ester, its an all day moisturizer.


Anyhow Let's get to the oils;


Basil- used for money, harmony, promotes sympathy, happiness and peace
Bergamot- Money and protection
Camphor- Purification, healing (particularly respiratory problems) and chastity
Cedar- Balance, spirituality, courage dreams
Cinnamon- used for personal protection, sexual stimulant for females, good for meditation, added to any incense, it increases its powers, money, and purification.
Clove- Courage, protection, sexual attractiveness, inhaled the oil helps the memory and eyesight, also good for toothaches.
Cypress- consecration, protection, healing (that of psychological problems), longevity
Eucalyptus- Health, Respiratory healing, purification, cures cold with daily application, add it to your healing baths
Frankincense- used to anoint magical tools, the altar. A strong purifier used in exorcisms, purification rituals, and blessings
Gardenia- Wear to attract love, A powerful feminine magnetic oil, protective
Grapefruit- Purification, banishes a sour disposition
Honeysuckle- An oil of the mind, it promotes quick thinking and is often used as a memory aid by dabbing on the temples, also used in prosperity rituals.
Jasmine- Symbol of the moon, used to attract love, helps you relax and sleep, sometimes used for meditation and general anointing purposes.
Lavender- Health, peace, relaxation, sleep, purification, fertility, love
Lemon- Energy, mental clarity, wit, cleansing
Lemon Grass- Psychic Awareness, purification, lust
Lemon Verbena- Love, purification
Lilac- Induces far memory, the act of recalling past lives, brings peace and harmony
Lime- Purification, cleansing, protection, fertility, love
Lotus- The sacred oil of the ancient Egyptians, suitable for blessings, anointing, meditation, dedicatory oil to your god(s)
Magnolia- Meditation, love, fidelity
Musk- sex, purification, courage
Myrrh- Spirituality, meditation, healing and blessing
Neroli- Happiness, protection, purification
Oak Moss- Money, prosperity, fertility
Orange- Purification, heightened awareness, luck
Patchouli- Money, physical energy, attraction, protection, sex
Peppermint- Purification, mental energy
Pine- Purification, money, healing, cleansing
Rose- Love, peace, sexual desire, beauty, maternal love
Rosemary- Love, Healing, energy, breaks hexes
Sandalwood- Spirituality, meditation, sex ,healing
Sweet Pea- New Friends, love, Happiness
Tangerine- Strength, power, Vitality
Vanilla- A vitalizing oil, energy restorer, sexually arousing in women
Vetivert- Money, Prosperity, attractiveness, breaks hexes
Yarrow- Courage, love, banishes negative entities
Ylang Ylang- Love, peace, sex, healing


Some Oil Recipes you may like;


Remember to always use an 1/8th of a cup of base oil with these.


Air Oil (elemental)- wear to invoke the powers of air and to promote clear thinking, for travel spells, and to over come addictions
5 drops Lavender
3 drops Sandalwood
1 drop Neroli


Anointing Oil- used for general ritual anointing purposes


5 drops Sandalwood
3 drops cedarwood
1 drop lemon
1 drop orange


Aphrodite Oil- use an olive oil base, and the Orris root to the oils, anoint your body to bring a love into your life


5 drops Cypress
2 drops Cinnamon
a small piece of dried orris root


Zodiac Sign Oils- wear as a personal oil to increase your own powers


Aquarius Oil- 


5 drops Lavender
1 drop cypress
1 drop patchouli


Aries Oil


3 drops frankincense
1 drop ginger
1 drop black pepper
1 drop petitgrain


Cancer Oil


4 drops Palmarosa
1 drop camomile
1 drop yarrow


Capricorn oil


3 drops Vetivert
2 drops Cypress
1 drop Patchouli


Gemini Oil


4 drops Lavender
1 drop peppermint
1 drop lemongrass
1 drop Sweetpea Bouquet


Leo Oil


3 drops Petitgrain
1 drop orange
1 drop lime


Libra Oil


4 drops Rose Geranium
2 drops Ylang Ylang
2 drops Palmarosa
or
1 drop Rose Absolut or otto
1 drop Cardamom


Pisces Oil


3 drops Ylang Ylang
3 drops Sandalwood
1 drop Jasmine


Sagittarius Oil


4 drops Rosemary
2 drops Oakmoss Bouquet
1 drop clove


Scorpio Oil


3 drops pine
2 drops cardamom
1 drop black pepper


Taurus Oil


4 drops oakmoss
2 drops cardamom
1 drop ylang ylang


Virgo Oil


4 drops oakmoss
2 drops patchouli
1 drop cypress


 Okay I am done with the oils for now because my computer today has cause me lots of grief and this one post has taken me all day to finish. Blessed Be )O(

Day 10/44- Your Sun Sign

This is my Sun Sign, which really answers a lot of questions to why I am the way I am.

Scorpio Astrology October 23 - November 21

Scorpio Strength Keywords:

- Loyal
- Passionate
- Resourceful
- Observant
- Dynamic

Scorpio Weakness Keywords:

- Jealous
- Obsessive
- Suspicious
- Manipulative
- Unyielding

Scorpio and Independence:

Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs and some actually prefer to live on their own that way there is never any issue of who controls what at home, they like to be in control.

Scorpio and Friendship:

Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.

Scorpio and Business:

Scorpios make excellent doctors, surgeons, scientists and leaders, they are perfectly suited to any form of business that makes a difference in the world, greatly impacts people and society and a most importantly, Scorpio has to be in a power position, this is why these careers are suited to the Scorpio, they all demand one person in supreme control giving orders and leading a unit of people/practices. In business, Scorpios tend to easily gather wealth, they make very wise business decisions and they are very conservative about spending their money. Scorpios are known for making money and hiding it, they will not announce it due to to fear that others will take the same route and becoming a possible competitor, or worse try to use the Scorpio to their advantage to use them for their money.

Scorpio and Temperament:

Scorpios are extremely ambitious, persistent and determined which is shown through a power hungry, controlling attitude. Not in a stubborn sense however, because a Scorpio will work for what they want and control will justified reasons. This is obvious to any onlooker. A Scorpio never gives up, they are so determined to reach their goal. The key to this success is their flexibility. They are able to re-survey a situation and take a different approach if necessary. This makes them very adaptable and versatile. Scorpios are fierce competitors, combined with their powers of observation and their excellent memory, they will recall facts and when necessary, bring them to the table at the time of need. They will win justly, with proper facts and arguments to support their thoughts and opinions. Scorpios are excellent at restoring order to a chaotic situation and they are just as capable of manipulating for their own greed and benefit. The un-evolved Scorpio is a very dangerous person because they use their powers to benefit only them and step on other people in order to satisfy their own greed.

Scorpio Deep Inside:

Scorpio is the most misunderstood of all astrology signs. They are all about intensity and contradictions. They like to be aware of a situation and always know what's going on, figuring this out with their probing mind, on the other hand, they are interested in the occult, the paranormal, conspiracy theories and other types of similar unknown mysteries. They are very capable of hiding their true feelings and motivations, they often have ulterior motives or a hidden agenda.
Scorpios are all about control, they need to be in control at all times. To be out of control is very threatening, even dangerous to the Scorpio's psyche, when they control, they feel safe.
Scorpios are very emotional, their emotions are intensified, both good emotions and bad. Negative emotions of jealousy and resentment are hallmarks of this turbulent astrology sign. On the other side, Scorpios are well known for their forceful and powerful drive to succeed and their amazing dedication. Scorpios are constantly trying to understand their emotions through finding a deeper purpose in life.
Scorpios are very intuitive, but not as in a psychic sense, more as intuitive into the human mind, they have a great understanding of the mystery and the power of the human mind.
Scorpios have a fear of failure which they keep hidden extremely well, should their confrontation not be successful, or their career fail, they will simply use their adaptive skill to quickly move and and leave the bad experience behind. Do not ever expect them to fess up or share their tale with anyone however because this shows signs of weakness and Scorpio always wins, they are always the self-proclaimed best! One of the reasons they seem like they always accomplish their goals is because they set tangible short-term goals that they know they can accomplish, they know what they are capable of and this is what they go for.
Scorpios are very weary about trusting anyone, a person needs to gain their trust and this gets built up over time and once all the 'trust tests' have been passed, Scorpio loves deeply and intensely. Underneath the cool exterior, energies and emotions are constantly flowing but the Scorpio deals with this be channeling this into useful activities, hobbies, relationships or a career. This is never apparent to the outside observer but knowing this fact explains why Scorpios are so passionate about whatever it is that they are undertaking. Scorpios have powerful instincts and they trust their own gut feeling which is another reason why a Scorpio seldom fails.
The ongoing lesson in life for those born under the Scorpio zodiac signs, is to channel their powerful energy into positive goals and not succumbing to the darker forces in life such as manipulation and greed, they will then have great success in their life and have a clean, happy conscience and a circle of friends they can trust and hold dear to them.

Scorpio in a Nutshell:

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

What it's Like to Date a Scorpio Woman:

Scorpio woman is very emotional, very demanding and very demonstrative. She is full of flair and intrigue, a fascinating woman that the strong A-type personality male will adore, for she presents the right amount of challenge with the right amount of rewards. The Scorpio woman is the ultimate seductive, flirtatious woman. She won't give a man her heart very easily because she is weary of trusting another person. The man will have to go through a series of 'mental testes' in order for the relationship to get solid and close. She may not show it, but she wants a close committed relationship. Ion order for this, the man has to be trusted, has to be affectionate and never try to control her. She is very possessive but the Scorpio woman is so full of mystery, sensuality and passion that most men do not mind being possessed by her.

What it's Like to Date a Scorpio Man:

TheScorpio male is unlike any other man of any other astrology sign. He is so unique that a seperate section is needed to explain about dating theScorpio man. Unlike most other zodiac signs, what it's like to date a Scorpio woman is very similar to dating a Scorpio man. The main difference is that instead of presenting a powerful feminine force like the woman, the Scorpio man presents a strong masculine, sexual force. The Scorpio man is easy to seduce and take home for the night, it is much harder to form a real relationship with him. The Scorpio man is very sensitive and feels lonely and unfulfilled, but he will never let a woman know this. Behind closed doors, be sensitive and affectionate to him appeal to his emotions only if you want a close relationship with him do not attempt to lead him on because he will see this and never forgive you. Toying with a Scorpio male is an unwise move. He will be jealous and possessive and will never allow a woman to control him. Let him take the lead because the Scorpio male is truly a fascinating person, you can never go wrong when he is planning the night! Scorpio men are very moody and their moods change like a pendulum on a clock. Stand by his side in these times and it will pass. Do not nag on him for he has a hard enough time understanding his own emotions. Scorpio men make excellent protectors and you will always feel safe under his radiating, passionate and energetic power.

How to Attract Scorpio:

Never be fake with a Scorpio, they can see it a mile away. Be genuine with your comments and listen to them attentively, (they always have something interesting to say so this is never a problem!) Do not try to hide things from them or tease them, they always have to know what is going on. Remember, they are the only ones that are allowed to tease and present the mystery and intrigue! They like frankness and honesty, speak your mind they will respect that. Scorpios are interested in almost all activities, so finding something to do should never be a problem. They are unpredictable and could change course of the date mid-way though so take these last minute changes with a smile and try something different. They like people who are not afraid to ditch a plan and try another. In conversation, do not tell them that their opinions are wrong or shoot them down, they are too proud for this and even if it is a joke, they might not take it with the humor that you meant. Never try to control them but do not be the damsel in distress either, they like strong, real people with driving ambitious personality like theirs.

Scorpio Erogenous Zone:

The genitals are everybody's erogenous zone but since the Scorpio is the most sexually charged of all zodiac signs, the genitals are extremely sensitive and will ignite a passionate fire that cannot be extinguished. Stroke and caress these areas lightly. There is no wrong way to stimulate this area, but be gentle.

Sex With Scorpio:

Sex with Scorpio is a total emotional and physical experience with passion and intensity. They have amazing stamina and can last all night long, round after round. Scorpio is the zodiac sign that is the most likely to act out a sexual fantasy. Most people will talk about it but the Scorpio will do it, they will fully throw themselves into the role. Do not suggest a fantasy to a Scorpio unless you plan to do it! Most Scorpios are direct and forceful and they seem to be an expert at what they do. They continue to seduce you even as the act continues. A thrilling experience not for the faint of heart!